Plain Me Thats All

sometimes this thing comes into my mind...a tree that dosent produce fruits shall be cut off left withered and die, and if this tree shall bare fruit and those who ate of it shall be blah blah blah all the way i sometimes wonder baring fruits i did nothing at all but instead negative stuffs and all...blah blah blah...yeah my time outside is all rather mixed up and short, too many things to do and so little time let it multiply? still not enough...kinda happy to see my mum's side of the relatives came for lunch and all really sweet of em... now i myself is confused, dont know where im going what i want need and wats my decision in the end... i feel very tired stuck in a going no where situation and all what am i gonna do as a career and all now? wats my 1 1/2 year gonna be like... i dont have anything now but just me... thoughts running in my mind bout things around me worrying, scared, stress and all sometimes for no reason i tend to feel stress too bout my family worry bout them scared bout my future and all keep tellin myself to fight on gotta chiong and yet... is not that im off for duty in svc but i request not to serve this week and for this month due to my this course, my knee cap? its worst like never b4 fri came out starting its all right till evening bout 6 i cant move much and quickly rushed for physio a last min bookin and felt better on saturday went out just to meet cg as been a while alr so yeah...and after that rush home to spend sometime with em and went out again...came back and rest and over slept soundly like a baby after a long long long long long time i didnt have such nice sleep alr guess im over exhausted and all monday to sunday 24/7 no rest day i feel myself more like a machine robot more then a human or maybe just a little better then robot due to emotions...monday - army moving round helping and all
tuesday- to friday as usual
saturday book out and start gg visit my grandparents spend time with them and all and rushed for svc(serving and not serving and all) after svc rushed home to spend time with my family talking to them and all
sunday- wake up and start my day again by spending time with my family and all visit my grandparents if time packed my room bit by bit and all and my army stuff evening eat a short meal and move off into camp and thats my everyday routine spending time by myself an hour is counted as WOW alr...now with my injured leg wat can i do...i wonder....i seems happy and all on the outside but inside? aint emoing or wat so ever...

x.J.x

changed4:11 PM,
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