Plain Me Thats All

ok here's am here freaking bored wasting half day off as usual for appt....am OOC again as usual aint sure where am gg this time...hope its a good place and all yup went for svc and went to meet bb mel yan and nette and was like really funny playing and all talked and all came over and watched olympic and to movie but the dvd player got prob so started singing instead lol...had fun though went home after that and woke up real late and was like siannded book in day...lol suppose to meet nd and all but cant wake up...wanna get the lets laugh by dr peter wagner or smething like that...just to chill i realise i smile or laugh or wat is just short term thingy and aint from my heart...looking from how i got from good soso bad worst and now gonner scary isnt it...man was surprised wind tagged lol... ok back am still thinking of wat or where when how am i gg to find wat's my passion interests and all to put myself down on track and start working towards my "goal"...aint wanna take another step down from gonner to unknown and next nothing... person/man w/o goal is bad and scary enough person/man w/o goal,motivation,life and being a gonner is even more scary... i wanna have an aim something that really interests me but i myself dont even know im like living in another person's bod. heart soul and all dosent even know wat it likes enjoy doing and all...SHIT! been thinking much too and saying this aint a good person and aint fit for takin care of....... its not ns thats making me stress even though sometimes but its the after ns thats making me... im really nothing when comes to taking away everything its just me myself and my bare hands which i myself dunno to trust myself or not... decided not to make any move at all unless i got a reason to do so...so i shall stay still and do nothing...if not i will start crapping and getting things mixed up and all again as usual so yeah... gg to get ready now chillZ~!

x.J.x

changed7:03 PM,
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