Plain Me Thats All

back been through alot of trails...and realise everytime it gets harder and harder...talked to my ptgf here n there once in a while...ok back...really felt dry and all...i really dont know what to do i feel so so down...crying at times and all...i really dont know what to do i felt so lost gone and all...been back to praying and all but still i dont feel the same way of how i feel bout my abba father anymore its like gone empty...been crying out days and nights for Him...why didnt he hold me...WHY!!!! been very dry and empty coming outta camp is just nothing is like not coming out at all my aim to come out is to see Him my family cg and all but now...i see nothing...food taste blend, nothing is nice...i dont see any joy or happiness left...i really admire those people who able to go through army smoothly and still stay faithful i really wanna be like them...now as im typing i still cry...sometimes i begin to double mind and all...i really dont know who i am what is my purpose and all...my legs are injured my arms are injured whole body injured..what can i do!!! WHAT!!! my heart is crying and shout out loud big time...i wonder who will give me strength, will and a dream to move up becoming someone better...i really really just feel so....didnt wanna talk much cos still in the end its the same...wanna thank my cg, ministry ptgf and her gf for praying for me always...i really need more strength faith and all as much as possible...please can any1 tell me more bout my life and all...

x.J.x

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