Plain Me Thats All

kk back to blog and frankly speaking i dont know whether im scared or not gg in its just so...like ~ yeah thats all i can say....its like 1 week 4 days more man...i really just feel like crying out loud why cant i go up to the next level everytime i failed, i dont understand this and that...just so !!!! irritating man...anyway these few days was really fun hanging out with frenz etc...been praying and once suddenly this came into my mind if i were given 2 choice 1. become v good in dance but one way or other u will kinda loose God in sight the other get closer to God but loose ur dance etc...i thought bout it for a while or like an hour and i said to myself i rather take no. 2 i dont mind loosing my dance but i cant loose God i dont know why too...went out with van and talked bout church stuffs etc and i really just said this which i feel im kinda like now...going church going cg but feel so over there only nothing else...like kinda stop at that level etc...i now kinda feel whether going in army now is it really a big test of my faith? im like stuck in the middle i really dont know what to do....can some1 give me an answer God reply me can? even though i do trust in Him giving me the ans at the right time right moment but how long do i gotta wait....i kinda miss my grandparents now...everytime i go to them they will comfort me no matter wat w/o talking and all but just the feeling is there...i begin to question myself alot of things till sometimes i dunno why will i think of such things in the first place etc...i dont know anything now just wanna chill and say no words....

x.J.x

changed1:58 AM,
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