Plain Me Thats All

haizz i feel tired and all empty God appear to me 3 times but i just got too tired and i didnt reply him... :'( been very hard trying to be good but still got scolded and all in the end...rough time is coming im afraid...i feel so dry empty weak and all i dunno how long i can really last...i feel like crying out loud but where can i? beach people say i siao, home my parents will come into my room anytime...i just felt so (no words to describe how i feel now) !!!!! still got long way to go and now im like half dead...i dunno wat to do...i am lost i feel nothing at all now...like as if i dont have HS anymore no nothing...going back to cross road...haizz didnt wanna scold any bad words sin or wat been doing my best and all till the max where my body can take it and bring me to it...i teared as i blog thats all i can do...needed a shoulder to cry on and all still....haizzz sometimes i dunno wat i do is right or wrong i really dont know i cant hear from God i got no motivation and all nothing more...people have faith i can do it but what about my physical, emotional, spiritual and mental being...i told myself to trust God and all mind over body and yet...wats the outcome...i really do wanna scold some bad words but i kept it up...i felt so terrible now having so many me inside a body 1 happy meeting frenz 2 sad when alone the fear etc 3 positive when gg in army...WHO AM I!!!! i am confused and all...sadness and toture....God take me to higher grounds and take care of me...hug me tight and never let me go...!!! i am scared i am lost i dont know what to do...i am gg offline alr ant wanna use com so anythings just sms...

x.J.x

changed1:26 AM,
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