Plain Me Thats All

ok back after sometime...really wanna say been a rough week for me really really rough where im freaking tested big time....i dont know how long i can just carry on as i am typing this out...but still i keep telling myself to move move and even move!!! believe and have faith... now as im typing this my mind keeps having this song falling and some song lyrics is YOU ARE FAITHFUL...been having little sleep due to proj work and all it came out really crappy and im very sad bout it even though its over...so i told myself never mind yeah...frenz and all probs starts coming out and thank God its solved...next is my projs again so yeah...and i got some money from my parents im like !!!! man wanna cheat and shortchanged God big time i tell myself HIYA dun give lah give BF better and all but later on i forced myself CANNOT!!! gotta give and give faithfully so i gave almost all i had to the Lord and when i look into my wallet i really wanna give more but i got nothing more but just my ez links and all to give...i really just tell myself FORGET IT!!! give all i got and rest...i slept and i forgotten when i dreamt myself dancing going for comp and all..doing designs and all just was going fine had a nice car and going to have a house cos the house was so different from what im staying now its even more nice...i cried...just then the alarm rang i woke up and i dunno to believe it or not but i cant dance, my work = shit...is it empty hopes my legs and arms are like slanted and i dare not ask my parents for money to see a doc cos they are not working...dont wanna bothere them much with money too...im really stuck....sunday morning didnt wanna wake up for svc but i told myself just go sacrifice and go...and so i did and really the worship song YOU ARE FAITHFUL i really just started crying im at lost i dont know much bout my future and all suddenly really so lost now till i got nothing to say when i worship Him im just scared dried out and tired out even though there are others serving harder then me so i dint complain much but just carry on i wanna be like them serving the Lord more then before...just feel my whole body felt warm and cosy as im crying....20 for whole month, after dance i left with 0...i really wanna dance yet shant say much and so yeah...after svc the people helping aid came and ask me whether wanna buy not and i dont wish to but say just give and help them out imagine if 1 day some1 close to u in there and nobody help how...so i just gave till now im lack for dance... :'( i believe and put my faith in Him...my faith is like a mustard seed or even smaller like a tiny microscope dust...even as im typing this out listening to the song falling im still cryin out...God HELP ME PLEASE!!! been doing my best to pray like ever before and all think i really gotta go on a fast and believe He is going to make a miracle in my life as man shall not live by bread n water alone, He is my provider my Heavenly Father...if an earthly father knows how to give good gifts wat more can u ask of your Heavenly father who loves u so much that He is willing to give His only son to die on a cross...even time in my mind different songs keeps coming in, verses repeating itself over adn over again...i gonna pull through and believe in miracles, if i can visualize it, i believe it, i can confess it, He can sees it, He can do it, He will make it come to past at the right time at the right moment as i believe in Him who does say and gives thing at the right time right moment yeah...JIA RONG CAN 1!!! CHIONG AH!!! reminds me of thursday power house came upon this verse and suddenly i felt God is asking me to build Him His house not just like that but in GENESIS22: 1-19..practically whole of genesis i can say...sacrifice wat is impt to me and all give it all the built Him a great house sowing in tears...i really just stood here quietly dunno wat to say am i really going to give Him my best? and few secs i told myself GIVE!!!! the end walked out and indeed i gave on sunday...i wanna sacrifice more and built Him a nice house and not only that but a house built with prayers too...that practically end of everything...too K's reaction still the same saying see soon and all...rather disappointed and all...but just tell myself forget it just forget it even though its hard...dont wait the being attracted even more then go and forget its even more hard and painful...and this is wat im doing now...just too many to say bout building His House, Relationship, Projs and all but still THANKS GOD my uncle came today saw me doing some work in my room and he said wow helping others do projs and all he said not bad...i got some projs ready to hand over to u during holiday if u wanna take up...its like a open door for me im really happy...thinking back bout wat i typed bout my dream design? it kinda came to past like so immidately after like a few hours or a night or i dont know all i know its not more then a day...PRAISE THE LORD!!!! I TELL MYSELF NO MATTER HOW HARD
I WILL GIVE HIM PRAISE AND KEEP PRAISING HIM...EVEN IF IM BEING CRUCIFIED AND ALL STILL MY PRAISE WILL GO TO HIM AND I WILL SING HAPPY SONGS TO HIM, WORSHIPPING HIM EVEN MORE THEN BEFORE NO MATTER WAT...

GUYS PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.....THANKS... :D

x.J.x

changed12:36 AM,
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