Plain Me Thats All

feel so different as if i've changed good or bad i dont know...all i feel as if im standing on a thin thin thread between in and out. LUKEWARM!!! thats the word... been trying my best to pray and all but still feel its not of use i sometimes wonder and doubt myself bout my life and all i really wanna see a miracle, signs and wonders and all the miracle of faith but....too my grandfather is like SO!!!! been up and down everyweek even though its tired but still i gotta do it and who ask me love my grandfather and mother...so yeah...sometimes my mind tend to wander off into space thinking bout things round me. too think i just give up on going after her even though there is still little feelings and all cos firstly i feel rathe unfair as i gotta committ myself to my grandparents, church, work and all and now this? 2ndly do feel that its really hard as still not forgotten her ex. wanna befriend with her and just frenz but...so yeah...army coming soon too... my work i just feel that i hate doing it more and more as if its end of my school days like that...i really wish to just get away to like a country and island to shop and relax 1st stop Malaysia or anywhere that has nice jeans shirts and shoes and many more which is super cheap hahaha...next is tiong man island to relax and enjoy the beach etc yeah the water and sand...WWOOO sunset too...wish can go with frenz or anybody watsoever having a nice dinner by the side watching sunset and all (dreaming now) yeah...back to reality i gotta get my BF completed oh yeah had my ideal house in mind alr and car maybe...too many things to write but lazy...

x.J.x

changed11:37 PM,
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