Plain Me Thats All

yeah back to blog more...firstly wanna talked bout vdae yeah was rather fun but still my "bros" in sch are having probs and sadness yeah...then missed svc this week when i really needed it most...cos of home reunion dinner which i ate it all alone...guess kinda my fault too for asking my praents to eat 1st with my big aunt and family...yeah went home alone and eat and feel sad missing svc after that came new year eve was all right nothing special and as usual 2 days of home visits....really shock to see andy xiu zhen hui fang erm louisa jazs midori and choons for the past few days was like WOW!!!! such a really small world lol.....ok anything lah...after new year 2nd day went for movie watching some dumb but rather ok movie called dreamgals...yeah...but still overall i still feel empty and nothing...tired exhausted and restless.....only listened to 1 hip hop music called ice box and others are like trance and rock...aint know why and wats wrong with me...everything seems fading away going away...now been working out cos wanna train better for dance and am like back to basics of 10 push ups and all trying my best to push mysef to the max everytime i fall i force myself again n again till i just go down...feel like im doing cos its a must to do and not something i like to do...why is it happening....feeling kinda sick,exhausted and empty all started coming to me again...watched this movie called in hell and was like talking bout 1 becoming a character of a beast more n more and found back himself soon rather interesting movie and kinda "sad" too...ok and talking bout sad think i made some mistake bout joining together cos i feel uneasy as if im not suppose to be in and lots more...i tend to feel things begining to rush in even more n more faster and faster and i seriouly not really enjoying this i miss those times together and all.... :'( really miss everything suddenly....my new year wish? i didnt even know what i want...how nice :(

x.J.x

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