Plain Me Thats All

ok....was in school feeling real tired 1st time i didnt wear my glasses out to sch...lol like blind bat...yeah don came over to do his work while i go for sch...hahaha went to sch having lots of nonsense lol....after that went to get some rest and went to workshop yeah....after workshop parents came and pick me up back home yup...poor ong stuck at home whole day lol....yeah after that quickly too a shower and took a cabbie down to bugis to meet ger yup...today she still high ah dunno why also hahaa...yeah gwendo came too yup...walked round and found her racer back hahah....blessed her lor yeah...haha yup....glad she liked it....after that we walked to o school yeah...ger went to meet ada while i send gwendo off to bs at YMCA yeah and walked back to take a bus home...ddint join ger and ada so that they can have their girl's chat yeah...aint wanna be extra lol yup....went home and started on my project OMG lah...use the flat white thingy dam discouragin lah haizz...super sad can dmged my tap...haizz dam discouraged now lah....seems like everything i touched/do/make will tend to be destroyed or ruined...really feeling very discouraged n bad...dont think i can make something real nice out lor...haizz =( haizzz feel like just handing up my dmged project and the end...really thinking back bout wat some teacher said its kinda true....and i really feel kinda more discouraged and sad, worried, uneasy.....FUCK!!! really cant control myself been trying v hard to improve but why i cant...i really sometimes just feel like crying out real dam loud and nobody hears and sees me....i really cant hear god's voice but only can feel something round me...sometimes i really wonder why am i on earth doing nothing but wasting space and all...really why god created me and aint wanna talk to me...is he leaving me behind dont wanna care about me anymore no matter how hard i try? is he? if that is the case then why so many ppl keep asking me to seek when he abandon me....haizz i really dont know am i thinking too much? who cares lah....ppl keep saying im good in wat ways im good....nothing good about me saying bad words? scolding? ruining things? i really dont wanna write so much or think so much now...just wanna relax and chill....wonder how is my grandparents alr so long didnt see them really kinda miss them...hazz =(

x.J.x

changed10:31 PM,
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